Mentalechoes

If there is one thing I could change about myself, I would make it so I wasn’t such a shy person. It’s funny, but a lot of people who know me actually think that I am a very confident person who strolls through life laughing and doing all the things I want to do. In [...]

Well, my internet has been cutoff because I am 3 months overdue on my account. You would think after being a loyal customer for 4 years that my ISP would cut me some slack over a couple of missed payments… but no. I got chopped last night at midnight. I was out at the time [...]

As I looked out across my flat,I wanted to lay down on my back.
So much crap could I see,I could hardly believe it belonged to me.
How the fuck did it all get here,where do I put it all to get the place clear?
The vacuum cleaner looks small in my hands,to suck up the mess in [...]

I often wonder if I doing anything right. I don’t mean individual things like ironing a work shirt, or my tax returns, I’m talking about the whole life thing. I see people that really seem to be inherently better at it than others. By this I mean they seem to make decisions that improve their [...]

I’ve been sitting here in front of the computer after a quiet choof wondering, just what the hell it’s all about. I don’t actually mean life - god that’s just too big right now - I just mean our 30’s. What’s our 30’s actually for?
See, when you’re in childhood it’s for being able to do [...]

How time flies when the unexpected happens! I can’t believe it’s been a week and a half since I was last here. Amazing really to think that the days can pass without us even being aware of them if we don’t take the time to stop and ‘live in the moment’.
A friend of mine turned [...]

Finally I’ve arrived at a point I have been trying to get to for what feels like ages; it’s time to get fucking serious; time to get out of this goddamned maudlin state I’ve been in for weeks on end and do something constructive! I have been reading back over my past few blogs and [...]

A friend of mine dropped by the house and I wanted to show him a particular picture I had taken when I was in India in ‘99. It’s been a long time since I had opened up that album; a really long time, years in fact! Yet when I began leafing through the pages which [...]

It was Fathers Day back home yesterday. One of my best mates told me in an email this morning, but I already knew about it. Thanks to Yahoo Calendar I don’t forget important dates now (unless I miss the reminder or I put them under the wrong date in the first place). I didn’t call [...]

Do you believe in fate, Neo?
No.
Why not?
Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life.
Larry and Andy Wachowski, “The Matrix”
I have been thinking a lot about fate and my destiny over the last couple of months. There have been a number of things that have happened in life and invariably [...]