Mentalechoes

There is a stillness to the night right now. It’s 12.41am and it’s all quiet outside in my middle class suburb. It’s very peaceful, and also very fucking cold! I don’t have any central heating in my flat right now, and so it’s damn cold inside. Maybe 14 degrees. I’m sort of used to it, but not in an eskimo kind of way. I still feel it, but it’s just I am better at ignoring it compared to when I was still living in Bris-vegas!

I really don’t want to have to go through a day at work tomorrow, but I don’t see any way around it. I suppose that’s a feeling a lot of us have; feeling like not going to work for whatever reason, but still going because we don’t have any other options for paying the bills at the end of the month. That’s ‘the grind’! Well I’ve decided I’m going to change my life and get out of the grind! Really there has to be a better way! And I think I have found one. I’m going to try writing a trashy romance novel and send it a trashy romance publisher like Mills and Boon, or Harlequin.

Err… what are going to do that for? I hear you asking. Well good question, there are a couple of reasons! -1- I am getting a lot of motivation to find a new way to make a living because what I do now just doesn’t do it for me anymore (I don’t think it ever really did). -2- I actually kind of like trashy romance novels and so I think it could be a totally fun thing to do. (And having fun is what life is all about.) -3- It pays well, and I mean really well if you can get signed with a publishing house to do books on contract. -4- I’m feeling really inspired by all the writers I seem to be making contact with. And -5- I have this ‘now or never’ feeling that if I don’t do this now, then I am never going to do this, and I will be stuck doing what I am doing for the rest of my life! Yeah well that thought alone is enough to motivate to go running naked in a snowstorm!

Writing is slowly becoming the central activity in my life. I’m doing that deliberately because I am trying to learn the craft of it. I do wonder though if anyone will buy trashy romance stories written by a guy? Well lucky for me, I have a good friend that has helped me find a really sophisticated pseudonum that should do the trick. (Thanks Lena!)

But one step at a time, let’s just get Friday over and done with first!

Padwanna!