Mentalechoes

I can’t believe that christmas is almost upon us! It always seems like the last two months just fly past in a few heartbeats. Every year it’s the same; we get to the beginning of November and then time starts to speed up and we begin to get pulled toward christmas like it’s a blackhole. Then once we hit christmas we’ve got so much momentum that we literally slingshot past the days leading up to new years eve in this veritable blur. There always seems to be heaps to do between christmas and new year as well. It never ceases to amaze me; even when you think you have nothing to do, you end having to rush around in a mad panic to get this huge amount of unexpected stuff done. Always too when you’re trying to take it easy after the massive over indulgence of food, drinking and drugs that was christmas and boxing day. But try as you might, no matter how hard you attempt to keep it casual, those days from the 26th to the 31st see you running around like the Mad Hatter at his tea party on liberal doses of high grade speed! By the time new years eve actually comes, we’re all running on pure adrenaline and shaking all over with excitement! It’s because we’ve reached that magical time where all our experiences and successes and failures and hopes and dreams for the 365 days before, and the 365 days ahead all align to one point in time; midnight! The beginning of a new chapter, and the ending of an old one. When the clock strikes twelve we all peak together, in a moment of exctasy with everyone else around us like a global orgasm. It’s the release we’ve all been rushing towards, and once we’ve experienced it, then everything seems to slide back into normality. But there is that afterglow period for the next couple of weeks where everyone is feeling better and more positive. For a few short weeks we all feel good about ourselves and about life. Then inevitably bland reality sets in and we fall back into our routines and begin the long march again to the next new year.

Or that’s the way it goes for a lot of us at any rate! Normally I don’t really like the lead up to new years eve, there is always this intense pressure to make it a fantastic night that it flops just because you’re trying too hard. Kinda like sex with someone new for the first time! But this year I am genuinely excited. I have this feeling that this year is going to be my year! I can’t explain it, but I can see a number signs that finally my time has come. It’s been really difficult for me the last couple of years, but I have the feeling that this year it’s going to be different! It’s feels good… I feel good!

I wonder how it feels for other people? This is the time of year where I become intensely interested in other peoples lives too. (I love hearing about people stories, everyone has a story, even the most boring mundane routine person.) If you feel like it, write me a quick comment and tell me how you are feeling with the new year upon us and what you want to do this year.

I’d really like to know.

Padwanna!