Mentalechoes

I’m once again on a “get rich or die trying” kick! It kind of started this afternoon when I thought I had found the perfect business online opportunity in Bris-vegas that nobody else was doing. As it turns out, someone else is doing it, but not really in any professional way. I started running some figures through my head and worked out that if I could get just a moderate client list then I would be making around 30 grand a year (Aussie dollars). Not really enough to live on, but certainly enough to supplement a part time job, doing something else which would be a lot more fun than grinding where I am right now.

Chances are I won’t do it. There are a whole bunch of reasons why, but top of the list is -1- I am not living in Bris-vegas right now, -2- I don’t plan to move back just yet, and -3- I am really frigging lazy. Chances are it wouldn’t have worked anyway. But maybe it might have, I don’t know, and probably never will!

I think this making loads of money and becoming successful is part of this cycle of trying to give my life some meaning and relevance. After all, if you can become rich, you are obviously doing something relevant and meaningful. Everyone loves a millionaire, as they say!

Last week I had the idea to start producing lesbian porn movies for the European market. It wasn’t because I have some fantasy to film lesbian porn or anything, but that it is actually the cheapest type of porn to make, and has the biggest marketshare in porn, so more buyers for your art! I even had a friend willing to become an investor and partner. Mind you, in the haze of white lines that seemed to be getting racked up with startling regularity, I am sure we missed a lot of the fine detail that makes running such a business harder than what we first thought! At the time, it didn’t seem much more complicated than; find some girls, film them getting off, sell it to a porn dealer. As it was, after I had sobered up I decided I couldn’t go into such a business on ethical reasons; my mum would really not understand if she found out, and would probably be very cross with me! Strange how these things always seem to make more sense after a couple of lines though!

So I’ll keep coming up with ideas now about how to become a millionaire until this phase passes and I feel life has meaning to it, and I move on to the next fad thing of the moment. I once heard Arnold Schwarzenneger say, ‘anyone can become a millionaire, they just have to want it bad enough and it will happen’. I sort of believe him, but at the same time I don’t. After all, this was a guy who used to inject horse steriods into his body when noone else was doing it (for bloody good reasons too, mind you)! He’s willing to go a lot further than what I am to become rich and famous. Maybe that’s why I’m poor, I just lack commitment!

I’ll think about this a while longer! Especially about the lesbian porn idea, that seems to at least make me smile.

Padwanna!