Mentalechoes

My social life seems to be picking up quite nicely these days. All of a sudden and out of the blue invites for parties, concerts and social gatherings are coming my way. It’s a welcome change from the sedate life of a self confessed computer gamer geek. I hope this is something that continues because I like it when my mobile phone rings.

My second dutch lesson was tonite. For some reason my brain seems more receptive now to the nuances of dutch language. The first two courses that I did were a real struggle. Everything new peice of knowleddge that I learned was done the hard way, like pushing square pegs into round holes; it can be done, but you have to do it with lots of smashing motions and be prepared for some pain. I think perhaps it is the teacher Yvonne, she is quite different from other teachers in that she has a sense of humour (a trait not commonly attributed to dutch teachers), and uses it a lot in her teaching methods. To her credit she’s making the learning fun, which is resulting in me actually learning! I figure I might even try speaking some dutch to one of the locals one of these days, to make use of my new knowledge. Or I might wait a few weeks more; after all, you don’t want to rush these things.

There is a storm tonight outside. The wind is wailing past my windows making a low pitched moaning noise as rain patters against the glass. My heart is filled with a feeling of coziness and safety hearing such sounds, while I sit inside my nice warm flat very soon to be lying on my couch under a blanket to watch a dvd. This feeling mirrors how I feel about life right now; finally in some way I feel the personal storms that I weather - that we all weather - are outside of the emotional space that my heart and mind occupy, and I have some feeling of peace and safety.

This week I also tamed the dark beast within myself. A dark and destructive influence it is too, and finally I feel that it is not running free within my psyche anymore. I only hope that this balance can be maintained.

Padwanna!