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I really gotta do something!
I’ve got just under 5 months till my birthday, and I have this burning need to acheive something big before then. I feel like I just can’t have another year go by where all I did was struggle through and not do anything meaningful, creative, or purposeful. It seems like that’s all I’ve been doing the last few years, just struggling through trying to get a firm foothold on day to day life.
To actually be able to do something in these next five months is going to require some fundamental change in the way I go about my week. I’m going to have to institute some kind structured way of working, and unlearn the bad habits of procrastinating and time wasting. Something that after many years of practice I’ve nearly perfected.
I spend a lot of time reading about the work practices and habits of successful people, in the hope that I can learn something that will make me the same way. However we have a saying from home that goes; you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink! I feel a bit like the horse right now. Doesn’t matter how much I read about other people, I still don’t seem to be emulating the things they do.
So I once again come back to this same point that I was at a few months ago, where I ask myself if I have any ambition or not? If I do, I’ll be able to work out a way to acheive the things I want, if not… well maybe I can become an alcoholic writer like Bukowski and make money off a debaucherious lifestyle. Which sounds like it might be something in itself if you think about it.
Hmmm… maybe I’m further along with this whole acheivement thing than I first thought!
Padwanna!
Posted: July 13th, 2006 under General Rant.
Comments: 4
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Comment from Anonymous
Time: July 13, 2006, 3:18 pm
Maybe, just maybe, instead of reading about how to reach other peoples types of success, you should spend that time planning your own 
Oh, and the working out thing you are going on about, can’t be healthy, I tried various sports this week and every muscle in my lower body hurts. Can’t be good, seriously 
Now, if instead of doing something so unhealthy, you spend that time on doing whatever it is what you want to do, you’ll have loads of time to spend blogging
Comment from pippi
Time: July 14, 2006, 1:04 pm
He Padwanna,
Reading you for a while it seems that you have plenty of ambition, i think you are lacking time and peserverance. I don’t agree with anonymous that you have to stop writing and act, writing helps you to visualize and fantasicize about what it is you want to do. I did reach the horrible age of fourty this year and yes that’s an age that probably by standard you have to have successes in different parts of your live, like work and familly and so on. I don’t really believe in that kind off succes i do want to contribute to society, and for the rest i’m doing what i find rewarding and interesting. this week i was doing a project on an asylum seekers centre for three days. It’s unbelieveable the children there are born here, and allready live here for 8 years or more and are still not sure if they and there parents can get an visa to stay. So it could be that they have to get back to the country of there parents. That situation makes them behave unattached and strange offcourse. For me those projects are really important to appreciate my live and keeps me focused to do what i find important, either doing something creative or something social. What would you like to contribute before your birthday? And how important is it that other people find that goal just as important as you? I’m really interested what the coming next months will bring for you, good luck Pippi
by the way a small
message for anonymous, you should lighten up a little being moralistic is not very inspiring and motivatig everybody needs to do things in there own time and tempo. sorry for being moralistic probably you allready reached the honoureable age off?
Comment from Padwanna
Time: July 15, 2006, 2:07 am
Hi Anon,
Planning my own success, hey! Dreaming my own success works pretty well, but planning… somehow that just doesn’t seem to have the same RL effect. That’s why I look at other successful people, they obviously know something I don’t!
Keep up with your exercise, the first month is always the most difficult but after that you well on the way to feeling and looking good. Don’t stop now, this is just the transition phase pain you get from going from lazy to active!
Thanks for the encouragement with the blog, I’ll try harder!
Honest!
Padwanna!
Comment from Padwanna
Time: July 15, 2006, 2:23 am
Hi there fab Pippi,
Excellent as always to get a conversation with you!
Heele gefeliciteerd voor je jarig! I’m very impressed, as 40 is a good age! A real milestone in life I believe. An age where the blending of wisdom, intelligence, experience, and physical power are all in balance, which allows you to do many many wonderful things! I hope you had really great time! I’m very happy for you.
The plight of the kids you described in your asylum project was very sad and also made me feel a little angry. I find it cruel that a system can toy with peoples lives the way it does. There is no more destructive force a person can experience than to live with the never ending uncertainity that tomorrow they could lose their home, friends, and very life they desperately cling to! I see this time and time again as a foreigner here myself, so I see first hand what pain and anguish it causes. It really shows the quality of person you are that you spend time of your own helping them; the very highest as Samwise would say!
Yes the next few months I feel are very important to me. I don’t know why but I feel that I MUST achieve the completion of my movie script project, and I MUST get my first web portal project well underway into active development. I feel if I don’t do it now, then I feel I may never do it. And that is a road I don’t want to go down in my life.
Lovely to hear from you, Pip! And wishing you a really nice weekend! Of course I’ll hear from you soon!
Your friend,
Padwanna.
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