Mentalechoes

My Venezualan soul brother Balduino came over for a visit tonight. It’s been about six weeks since I last saw the Spanish speaking Love Gun (as he’s known in my apartment), which is really too long a time apart for a friend like he. There is something infectious about his enthusiasm for life and his [...]

You know it’s very easy to dive into a deep hole, and surround yourself in darkness, if you want to. Sometimes the darkness can be comforting like a blanket because at least it means you feel something, in a world where you can all too quickly feel nothing at all, because everything can loose its [...]

I can feel the approaching depression like a mist slowly starting to gather around me. Faces that are familiar and friendly start to blur and become strangers, my flat stops feeling comfortable and becomes an object of frustration and annoyance. The small every day things that used to make me smile seem like purile distractions [...]

Not to complain or anything, but sometimes living in a foreign country can be very fucking trying, let me tell you. This whole dutch thing is crushing me a bit right now. I think it’s because I had a really good mate from home stay over for a long weekend with me, and we had [...]

You know, it’s just amazing how much effort it takes to keep life going in a single direction. Maybe I feel this way because this is the first time in what feels like my whole life that I am really working towards a goal with projects I am doing. Like I’ve started something with the [...]