You know, it’s just amazing how much effort it takes to keep life going in a single direction. Maybe I feel this way because this is the first time in what feels like my whole life that I am really working towards a goal with projects I am doing. Like I’ve started something with the end in mind, and am not just seeing where something takes me.

I’ve realised that if you are going to do something, you have to do it heart and soul, and that really means knuckling down and working at it, even during those times when you don’t feel like it. I’ve never really planned out stuff like I am doing now, but I can see that if I don’t then the dream won’t be realised; you don’t get somewhere by giving up half way or going where the wind blows.

Probably for the first time in my life, I also feel like I can actually acheive what I am aiming for. Self confidence was never something I had a lot of, so it has always been difficult for me to feel like I could start something and pull it off like I had envisioned. But this is different, I can see that I can make this work, and that gives me a lot of energy right now.

Still for all that, I do need to get some sort of more structured lifestyle in order. Sustained energy over time is what is needed now, so I have to plan my time in order to use it more effectively. After all, time is the most precious thing we have, and it shouldn’t be wasted.

Padwanna!

 
  • pippi

    Dear Padwanna,

    That all sounds really good and makes me very curious what your aming for. Confidence seems a strange thing it does not matter how talented you are if you feel inadequate that’s what seems to count. Other people telling you the opposite helps a little but succeeding stands or falls with your own confidence and allso perserverance. Me i’m not lacking ideas and motivation but i’m benifited by projects that don’t take months and months, so that means there are still some creative projects on the shelf, has allso to do with the believe that i have that who is waiting for a book off pictures made by me for instance.

    Did an other project on an asylum seekers centre i’m very tired but allso very satisfied.I made very nice contacts with a lot off special children. That again are in bad situations but still did not loose there abbility to play and dream and that is very hope full.

    What about the moviescript and your Dutch lessons?

    Have a good weekend and hope to read new stuff soon. Groetjes Pippi

  • ann

    Sounds like you are learning important lessons. Good luck with your new project!

  • pippi

    He Padwanna,
    How are things going? What is happening with the interactive part off your website? Because that is part off the fun offcourse. Are you so busy with your Litttttterlallllly log? How is it coming along? Me i’m fine going for a sunny holliday in afunny days i’m so looking forward to that words can not even describe that. Hoping to hear from you vriendelijke groetjes van Pippi

  • Padwanna

    Hello Wonderful Pip,

    Long time no talk hey! Well I’ve been off on a bit of a sojourn as we say. I’ve been working rather hard on this other site trying to get it going, and then a friend dropped over from London for a long weekend. Anyway, I hope to be writing more soon, as I really am getting slack as a half dead sloth about writing here.

    So it sounds like you are doing some great work with the Asylum people. That’s very special to be able help people the way you do. Not everyone can do it, Pip. I honestly can say that I believe the world needs more people like you in it. So how do you get to work with new families then? I’m interested to know.

    Well all my other projects are queued up behind the community literary site. As soon as I get it up and running I will get back to those others. I have also decided to start a writers group here for international people in Amsterdam. I’ll advertise that on the site as I get it off the ground. My dutch lessons I will do again after christmas I think. It’s important to me, but time is a premium right now, and I need it for other things.

    Have fun in the rain, and I really hope you have a ball on your summer holiday.

    Best wishes for you always, Pip.

    Padwanna

  • Padwanna

    Hi Ann,

    Yeah it is a good lesson, but I just wish I would learn these things faster.

    Really glad to see you back on the writing scene. Your a talent too good not be out in the world.

    Talk to you soon,

    Padwanna!

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