My mother always used to say to me; if you’ve got nothing to say, the don’t say anything! And I guess that’s been what it’s like for me over the last six weeks or so, I simply ran out of interesting stuff to say. Maybe that’s what they call writers block; that void when you sit down at the keyboard and the only thing that comes to mind is a gnawing realisation that there isn’t anything on your mind. So I sort of figured instead I wouldn’t bother with writing until I was ready. You might call it downtime!
That period also coincided with the last weeks of my old life before my birthday. Always a busy time for me really, because I always end up in this hellish period of introspection. Birthdays are always a marker to see how far you have come in life from the one before. I find they are natural points in time where you assess things and work out if you have gone forwards or back. This is important to me, especially as I get older.
I guess things have gone forward. Maybe not as much as I would have liked, but enough for me to feel satisfied that the year has been good. I discovered my heart again, but also discovered that there is still the past that lingers, and taints my feelings and thoughts. It will have be something I finally deal with this year.
So as Samwise said to Rosie right at the end to finish it all; I’m back!
Talk to you all again soon!
Padwanna! 
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