Mentalechoes

There’s a tune that I listen to these days, that is one of the most beautiful peices of music that I have heard in a long long time, called Kissing Air, by Future Funk Squad. No matter what kind of mood I am; be it happy, sad, fucked off, whatever, it always brings me around to a state of joy and comfort with the world. Right now, more than any other time I can think of in my life, music is something that brings meaning to my life, and helps keep me balanced when everything else seems to be swinging like a pendulum between various states of disorder.

I talked about this a while ago here, about how music is something that is necessary in my life now. I don’t just listen to music for enjoyment, I use it as a meditation to focus my mind and put my heart in touch with my head. It’s amazing how those two entities can be so out of touch with each other, and cause you so much confusion and lead you to misguided action. There are times when they are so far apart, that you wonder whether or not you will ever feel whole.

Is this a product of our modern life? We seem to have a society where youth, sex and power are worshipped, and our relationship to others and the outside world is all very superficial. Maybe it’s just now, when I am more sensitive to everything around me beacause of my breakup, that I see things in life in a way that I didn’t before. Breakups are like that, they have a way of ripping the perceptive lenses off your eyes that you used to wear all the time and you didn’t even know.

When I am moving around outside nowadays, I always have my little sony flash walkman with me, so I can listen to music and create a little bubble of calm around me. In this way, I am able to keep my mind centered and relaxed. One day I hope I can find a way to achieve this state permanently.

Padwanna!