I don’t think we fully understand the consequences of our actions, until we are truly forced to face them. Or at least, I feel that’s how it works for many people, because if we did, then there wouldn’t be so many fucked up people in the world.
Right now, I’m being forced to face the consequences of some decisions I made, and I’m finding out that for me the cost was too high. The really screwed up part, is that if I could re-live that time over again, I would probably make the same decisions again.
Does that make me stupid, or bloody minded, or a masochist, or maybe even a thrill seeker? I don’t know. Maybe I never will, because it depends on who you tell the story too, as to what kind of judgment will get passed. All I know is, the cost has been too high, yet I would do it again.
And that’s something that can be very hard to live with.
Padwanna!
