Where have you been?
It might be a question you would ask of me, having not seen me in two weeks. It’s also a question that I have been asking myself, because really the last two weeks have been a blur.
In answer to your question, I’ve been absorbed in an emotional experience that was as hot as fire, and cold as ice… fire and ice… creating a torrent of opposing forces from which came both intense pleasure, and aching pain.
I thought that I had experienced everything I ever would in terms of sexuality, and sensuality; I thought there was nothing new to the dynamics of relationships for me to learn; I thought I controlled my own surroundings.
Two weeks ago my life diverged from its predictable routine when I fell into a emotional reality defined by three connections; mine and two others. It was one of the most intense periods of my life. Nothing can compare to it. Because of this experience, I am more than I was before.
But there has been a price to pay for running in emotional overdrive for such a long time. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. I knew it would be like that in the beginning, but I wanted to go with it anyway, because I craved the experience; experiences I had never known before. I only hope that there is something left to salvage once the fires have finally died.
Padwanna!
