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My birthday musing
Well today is my birthday, the last year of my 30's has begun. I feel like it's a time of change for me this year more than any other, simply because I feel different this year; more calm, and more self assured. It hasn't come easy, but I look back on my decade of being 30 something and realise that it's been one hell of a wild ride. Noone could ask for more of an experience than what I've had, and I doubt there is any other experience I would have wanted to have had instead.
Clint Eastwood once said that a man finally matures at 40. I actually can see now that he was right, which makes me feel really sorry for women, because they have to wait until their men have grey hair before he stops acting like a child. In that way I think women are stronger than men are as they have to put up with so much more childish shit from the person they share a bed with.
So it's been a good day for me, I've talked to friends back home as well as here close to me. I've eaten loads of my favourite Tim Tam chocolate biscuits that my uber good friend Lena sent me via special delivery from Coles New World, Nerang. And I've enjoyed some simple pleasures that make me happy, like movies and writing.
It's a good day today.
I always wonder too what the next year will bring. Looking back some pretty cool, and trippy things happened the last 365 days. I never would have guessed that such things could have even happened at all. It's that mystery in our lives that makes each day truly exciting; never knowing what can happen, and then something totally unexpected comes along. I guess this is why life is so hard to give up; we never get tired of the mystery. My grandmother is in her late 80's and she still talks with the enthusiasm of a young girl when she recounts the days since our last talk on skype.
I've got only one resolution this year; say goodbye to my 30's in a year of style! After all, the memory has got to last me the rest of my life! 
Padwanna
Posted: November 1st, 2007 under General Rant.
Comments: 4
Comments
Comment from pippi
Time: November 1, 2007, 9:58 am
He Padwanna,
Happy birthday, i knew it was november but i forpot the excact date, so you ar still in your thirties he that’s good!! If your lucky the older you get the more happy, relaxed and self assured you will feel. If i work wih 15 years old i always have mixed feelings on the one hand, they seem so tough, and strong but what i see on the otherhand is that they are so uncomforteable with there bodies and so busy with opinions of others. very tyring. You know that i still have a bag off eucalyptisch sweets in my bag, for you, i wonder if they will ever meet the right owner. Have a good day today and enjoy it!
Kus en groet pippi
Comment from Fiona Anderson
Time: November 13, 2007, 2:08 am
hey baby!
my god! how on earth do you START something like this? this is wonderful, i used to love reading your stories at Uni!
you still sound as mad as ever, but can i be naive for a momento, lines are LEGAL in Holland??? bugger me, i can see you now, a young James Spader slash Cagney in a euro classic!! Hee hee, i love ‘mentalechoes’ and will read more, and now am about to go check out ‘amsterdamage’
luv ya, F 
Comment from Padwanna
Time: November 17, 2007, 7:48 am
Thanks Pippi.
Yeah it’s been a long time since we caught up. I know it’s all me, since I am crap at keeping up with people, but yeah, we should make the time to see each other soon.
Growing older is a funny thing. I do feel much more confident in myself - faults and all - than I did this time 10 years ago. The burning need to get out in the world and discover everything has been replaced by a comfort in having done the things I wanted to do. But now, there is a different burning need starting, and that’s to make something out of my life and to start working towards some material success that I have not ever had. It’s not money for moneys sake, but more, a desire to acheive something for myself rather than always be working for someone else and making them rich off my hard work.
I hope you’re doing well and life is good for you Pip. We’ll talk soon
Padwanna
Comment from Padwanna
Time: November 17, 2007, 7:56 am
Hello Fi baby,
Yeah I’ve been writing on and off - more off than on - for years. The trouble is, along with my fantastic natural writing talent, I have a fantastic ability to be bone lazy and a natural tendency to do fuck-all. Doesn’t make an up and coming writers carreer. Still I write when I like and it makes me happy. Maybe one day I can overcome my instincts to stop moving completely and do something with this stuff. Till then, you’re one of the 4 people in the world who will read me. But that makes me happy. It really does.
Love ya back, babe!
Padwanna!
PS: No lines are not legal here. Hence I use a nom de guerre.
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