Sleep deprivation.
I feel like I'm constantly sleep deprived.
I'm so fucking tired, yet I can't sleep. Didn't somebody write a song about that? For some reason I only seem to sleep 4 hours a night, even though I'm in bed for at least 7. I usually wake up a couple of hours after I lie down and lay there semi-awake-semi-asleep for some time until I drop off. I started exercising again too so I could get my body tired so I would fall asleep easier and stay asleep. So far, it's not working.
I've started getting nightmares again. It's nothing new for me to have nightmares, I've lived with them all my life, but the intensity and reality of my nightmares is increasing. They're becoming more real, and there are times when I know I'm asleep in a nightmare and I try to throw myself awake so I can escape the desperate fear that grips my psyche when my mind is in another state.
Does a dream become reality when the dreamer believes it is so? I mean, what if a dream becomes so real that the dreamer can no longer distinguish between the reality he left and the reality he is in, can a new reality be created, like a shell around the old one?
If you think about this for too long, it all starts getting very matrix-ish; you start to question just what reality is, and how we know and understand and interpret what it is. Who's to say dreams aren't as real as the waking world; you're just not permitted to stay there long enough to personalise it and make it feel like home.
I once read a philosopher in the UK – I forget his name now – saying that the more people that believed in a reality, the more real and encompassing it became. Because of this "universal law", Middle Earth did actually exist as it was born out of all the people who had read the books (the movies were not around back then) and given themselves over to the power of their belief.
Perhaps that's all reality is in the end; just an image we sustain in our heads that we believe in! Perhaps the reason the world can seem so fucked up at times is because we all believe in the really bad stuff collectively as a human consciousness whole.
I can see there is a lot of energy in a thought, which is why we should be more careful with how we shape them.
Padwanna!
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