Mentalechoes

Lifes on the up and up; I've quit smoking, made it passed my probation period at the new job and been given a permanent contract, and turned over a new leaf when it comes to doing gear as part of the usual weekend blowout. I'm feeling pretty good, even though I'm not really looking it. [...]

Sundays over, and I'm suddenly struck by this feeling of overwhelming lethargy; partys over, and real life is about to begin again. It feels like a year has gone by so quick when you're at the end of it, but at the same time, when you're looking down the road at the beginning of a [...]

So this is it, 10 hours to go and counting to the end of 2007. I can’t help but get nostalgic for all that is, all that was, and all that will go down in my history as, the year 2007. A year always seems to be such a long time at the beginning, and [...]

Sleep deprivation.

I feel like I'm constantly sleep deprived.

I'm so fucking tired, yet I can't sleep. Didn't somebody write a song about that? For some reason I only seem to sleep 4 hours a night, even though I'm in bed for at least 7. I usually wake up a couple of hours after I lie down [...]

There was a storm here last night. It was quite fierce. The sound of the wind gusting up against the window woke me up in the early hours of the morning. There is something about the chaos of a storm that resonates deep inside of me, making me feel comfortable with the raging environment only [...]

Well today is my birthday, the last year of my 30's has begun. I feel like it's a time of change for me this year more than any other, simply because I feel different this year; more calm, and more self assured. It hasn't come easy, but I look back on my decade of being [...]

When I was 13 years old I organised a Guiness Book of Records attempt on the worlds longest time playing tennis (yes there is such a thing) at my junior high schools tennis courts. I got 3 friends together, sponsorship from a local sports store, and about 200 balls, in a determined effort to make [...]

I've come to the realisation that it's not just drugs and alcohol that I'm addicted to, but pretty much everything that can be addictive. I've known for a while that I have an addictive - possibly… most likely obsessive - personality; at least since I was 16 when I recorded the techno background music to [...]

I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that [...]

Wikipedia's opening line about addictions is this: An addiction is a recurring compulsion by an individual to engage in some specific activity.

It's that part that makes me believe that addiction isn't just about physical scenarios, but emotional ones as well. Usually we use the word for the case of a particular type of drug abuse, but it [...]